The Mutual Understanding of Human Emotion

      Today I returned at 8 ++ p.m., from going out at nearly 1 p.m. for my taekwon-do lessons.  It's been 2 days since I worked out overtime (well, not actually...).  However, I learned about human emotion today.  It's a very important lesson that keeps propelling my feelings towards my surroundings' individual intact.  Some events like I mentioned previously opened my insight about the absolutely true nature of human beings, though it may be limited to this scope of people within my campus, but I'll tell anyway.  So, it's a stretch...

1.  People who have misconception about personality

     Within this context, it means people who mistakenly accepts a person based on their appearance.  They judge people based on how they accept a people's appearance, be it from wealth, experience, or simply power.  In my life, there's been countless events that leads me to be misunderstood by people.  The best example is from my multiracial status.  Since I arrive in UPSI, I had encountered countless incidents that becomes a thorn in my meat.  Been  in the brink of being swoosh away from the mosque because I look like Chinese, been mistaken and mistreated against my race status (Chinese treat me like Malay, and Malay treat me like Chinese), bullied because of my timidness (be it in the assignments, housework, or social circles), I'm mistaken for a 4.0 scorer because of my firmness, and stern complexion in facing every day life.  People who wouldn't even glare at my name tag would treat me like a Chinese and proclaim in the end, "Ha, you're a Malay ah?" and then treat me like one of their own, or even worse still, Chinese who I felt so comfortable with would later on judge me as a typical Malay after recognizing my initials, doubting about whether I'm practicing the annoying things that they thought an normal Malay would do, such as praying 5 times a day, wearing those smelling "songkok" (for people who didn't maintain them well, that is, like when I sniff 1 head-on during my last Friday prayer in our new campus's mosque), or the most heinous of them all, people DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO CATEGORIZE ME IN WHICH RACE, and later becomes subjected to reject my existence.  This is by far, the greatest obstacle and the pain that I must endure in this tiny society.

2.  People who uses others as a marionette

      Not just anyone would ever be able to perform this deed, just those that possess specialties in manipulating others' will, then converse it into willpower of the victims to obey their command.  Haven't been experiencing it much really, because I seldom being commanded (but as a leader, I never, ever shun my members' necessities, and would be willing to draw in the extra mileage to accomplish the task well).  However, just to elaborate a bit of this nature, they're mostly accomplished by people who're lazy to face the reality themselves, and prefer to place people as their shield to bias away all the bullets and take the final blow to their enemies who're weaponless by that time.  This is just a metaphor to the actual scenario.  People like this usually want people to do their part, before squealing away in the end with the benefits, besides being successfully dodging away from the probable negative aftermaths.  Just like when a manager wants his underlings to fill in his task before claiming the good praise from the big boss eventually.  There's a lot of people like this in the campus, however so far I only encounter 1 scumbag like this in semester 2.

3.  People who thinks negatively about others, but later retracts their outlook on the subjects

      Occurs mainly to people who refuses to accept a person's existence at first, however negates it bit by bit after they acknowledged the person's similarity with them.  Occurs to me either, be it from the Malay or Chinese side.  Mentioning some of my personal experiences, in semester 1, I've been mistaken as a Chinese by my course mates due to the nature that I'm constantly been "coupling" with my buddy Arvin.  However, as they eventually noticed that I'm their same boat, they learned to take me in.  As I constantly greets in Islam, shook hands whenever I encounter someone I know (mostly my course mates), go to mosque (they seen it), they firmly believe that I'm a full-fledged Islam.  As for the Chinese, only a few eventually manage to take me in, the others still look at me with prejudice after knowing that I'm not that someone who they could took to those stalls that sell pork grinds.  They still asks me in disbelief about my history; my family's culture, my origin of learning so much varsity of linguistic knowledge, and my mother tongue.  And so they'll have to accompany me for quite a while before they manage to assimilate me into their social circles, negating the name "Farid" and changing it to 法力instead.  It's a constant repetition of "be-my-friend" process that I'll have to endure.

4.  People who looks highly upon themselves, and not putting others existence within their sight

      This puts into account that bastard currently residing in my home, scraping on my mom's back, and some others who think they're intelligent well above others.  For this context, I'll put into consideration the linguistic course in my university.  For these courses (the heck, I'll mention them all, Malay , TESL,Tamil, and Chinese Studies). For some weird tingling in my conception (it's not a feeling, it's true literally), they tend to consider their courses to be the cream of the crop.  Other technical courses are just a s@#t to them in comparison.  When they hear you mention that you're not a Dean's List Achiever, they'll almost possibly look down on you right at the spot while mentioning that annoying "I score 3.5/ 3.6/ 3.7 eh...your course is easier than me, why is it you couldn't score? Not working hard enough is it?". S@#t with that thought.  In the first semester, I always blinded by the cockiness of the track suit guys (sports science), and later I would foresee that there's more than in the eyes.  Linguistic course, O.M.G.  When they carry the dictionary around, showing off their competency in their language studies, it's a bag of manure tossed to technical studies.  If you suddenly going to be forced to take in something new, would it be easy for you to score? People who constantly excel in the same field that they always score in would just be living a lie.  Actually, these are the lots that always embarrass our uni by performing demonstration demanding for extra posting, knowing that their position is insecure in the future.  Come on, see that how hard we need to kick our butt just to get a B+? These results would actually guarantee our position, not because 1 student needs 2 teachers to teach them the same language.  Go figure.  The most annoying is due to the fact that technical course like ours are misunderstood as easy, commoner occupations like technicians.  We IT-ians are always been held responsible for the study aid devices like projectors.  Blast those history juniors to their stomach's...They are just becoming teachers eventually.  We're the ones who'll hack their data, and manage their discrepancies about information technology.  Eat that!!!

5. People who's harsh in appearance, but behaves better than those who aren't

      These people are fancy, they give others a bad impression initially, but later becomes the actual cream-of-the-crop.  They seldom appears to perform to their full extent in front of others in the fear of being acknowledged, but later becomes the role models that are inspiring to be followed.   Some Kelantan-ese male that I recognized are harsh towards me (maybe perhaps they couldn't come up with my gentle nature) eventually become like my brothers, better than those who performs well in the beginning, but bails out in the end.  These people in my perception are cuddly and should be approached as a long time companion.  They'll inspire you to perform the best, not like those who are just showing off and finally depends on you in typically everything.  Kudos...:-)

      There's more, however it's too sensitive to be added.  Contents will vary from time to time...(inspired by my today's taekwon-do practice, where I observed people who're fickle and those who stands out until the end)