Can't believe I'm here again, in only 2 days' time. Usually, I'm not this "aeng" (have ample time), but after I arranged my study timetable, I realized that there are still time for me to relax a bit. Don't want to tense myself too much. As today, I really can't stand their attitude towards me anymore. They're inhumane and lack of morality. Are every 1 of them act like that? Less comment, the better. I make a decision to run away tomorrow after attending an IT seminar. Let them be free of my "annoying" self, if they feel uncomfortable with me. I've lost my respect for them, be it to even chat with them. Let this jerks be a part of my painful memory. As I wrote this entry, they're snoring loudly. Wondering if I could sleep later... I really want to lessen my communication with them so that they'll slowly lose sight of my true self. Let me be evil, I can't stand their arrogance.
Once again after visiting my blog often these 2 days, I noticed that my blog looks quite...ordinary. But, let it be, as I'm currently trying to gain experience in the world of blogging. Changed my layout. Probably my other 2 love stories won't be updated in a while, unless if I'm under a disturbed state of sanity or just feeling like it. The original purpose of this diary is to express my entire feelings anonymously, in a sort of complicated manner so that people who read it will have a twisted state of mind; and able to evaluate every actions behind my reasoning. Didn't mean to confuse or showing off my skills or anything, but it's the actual virtual whiteboard where I could pour out my entire soul into expressing myself as I'm kind of mute in front of public, in other words, introvert. So, I hope that my art won't be misinterpreted like myself being looked by the TESL students as showing off in my English class.
I never dare to show off, even if it means to disgrace an immoral person. I post everything in English, my FB, my emails, and, here. But, this semester alone, I understand why I'm not chosen into a linguistic course: TESL. If I enter those courses, I will BE LIKE THEM. As I see it, they always trying to show off their linguistic skills. But, given should an IT book full of codings is thrown at them, could they decipher it even if it is covered entirely in English? I'm not showing off like those midgets, enough that I keep it to myself and to my dear pals. Actually, there's a precise reason of why I'm posting everything not in my mother tongue language. But, maybe I'll reveal it in the future to come. And it's indeed a personal one. Another thing that I would like to note about linguistic students (I'm really sorry if this may seem insulting), is that they're sort of...slacking off. Ok, that's it. As my entire house occupants is like that, I've experienced it myself on their work ethics. Full of assignment load, busy, those excuses is a piece of lie. But, they could score >3.5 in exams. Maybe it's their course only, or the contrary. I don't want to talk bad, as I'm heavily sinned my entire life. It usually comes back to haunt me in an unexpected period. I'm sorry for insulting them. But I feel it's the honest truth. Go figure.
Actually, I'm just telling that I've changed my diary layout, but it seems that I'm slanting a bit towards venting my blind fury today. So, that's it. During this holidays, I need to do a lot of internal reminiscence to refirm my true path of life so that I wouldn't be treated like a beggar next time like I'm now. Probably I'm worse. Once again, thank you for those who remained loyal and maintains on peeking my diary once in a while. Appreciate it.--->*-*
"don't compare your progress with that of others. we all need our own time to travel our own distance."
Friday, December 23, 2011
New Layout
Can't believe I'm here again, in only 2 days' time. Usually, I'm not this "aeng" (have ample time), but after I arranged my study timetable, I realized that there are still time for me to relax a bit. Don't want to tense myself too much. As today, I really can't stand their attitude towards me anymore. They're inhumane and lack of morality. Are every 1 of them act like that? Less comment, the better. I make a decision to run away tomorrow after attending an IT seminar. Let them be free of my "annoying" self, if they feel uncomfortable with me. I've lost my respect for them, be it to even chat with them. Let this jerks be a part of my painful memory. As I wrote this entry, they're snoring loudly. Wondering if I could sleep later... I really want to lessen my communication with them so that they'll slowly lose sight of my true self. Let me be evil, I can't stand their arrogance.
Once again after visiting my blog often these 2 days, I noticed that my blog looks quite...ordinary. But, let it be, as I'm currently trying to gain experience in the world of blogging. Changed my layout. Probably my other 2 love stories won't be updated in a while, unless if I'm under a disturbed state of sanity or just feeling like it. The original purpose of this diary is to express my entire feelings anonymously, in a sort of complicated manner so that people who read it will have a twisted state of mind; and able to evaluate every actions behind my reasoning. Didn't mean to confuse or showing off my skills or anything, but it's the actual virtual whiteboard where I could pour out my entire soul into expressing myself as I'm kind of mute in front of public, in other words, introvert. So, I hope that my art won't be misinterpreted like myself being looked by the TESL students as showing off in my English class.
I never dare to show off, even if it means to disgrace an immoral person. I post everything in English, my FB, my emails, and, here. But, this semester alone, I understand why I'm not chosen into a linguistic course: TESL. If I enter those courses, I will BE LIKE THEM. As I see it, they always trying to show off their linguistic skills. But, given should an IT book full of codings is thrown at them, could they decipher it even if it is covered entirely in English? I'm not showing off like those midgets, enough that I keep it to myself and to my dear pals. Actually, there's a precise reason of why I'm posting everything not in my mother tongue language. But, maybe I'll reveal it in the future to come. And it's indeed a personal one. Another thing that I would like to note about linguistic students (I'm really sorry if this may seem insulting), is that they're sort of...slacking off. Ok, that's it. As my entire house occupants is like that, I've experienced it myself on their work ethics. Full of assignment load, busy, those excuses is a piece of lie. But, they could score >3.5 in exams. Maybe it's their course only, or the contrary. I don't want to talk bad, as I'm heavily sinned my entire life. It usually comes back to haunt me in an unexpected period. I'm sorry for insulting them. But I feel it's the honest truth. Go figure.
Actually, I'm just telling that I've changed my diary layout, but it seems that I'm slanting a bit towards venting my blind fury today. So, that's it. During this holidays, I need to do a lot of internal reminiscence to refirm my true path of life so that I wouldn't be treated like a beggar next time like I'm now. Probably I'm worse. Once again, thank you for those who remained loyal and maintains on peeking my diary once in a while. Appreciate it.--->*-*
Once again after visiting my blog often these 2 days, I noticed that my blog looks quite...ordinary. But, let it be, as I'm currently trying to gain experience in the world of blogging. Changed my layout. Probably my other 2 love stories won't be updated in a while, unless if I'm under a disturbed state of sanity or just feeling like it. The original purpose of this diary is to express my entire feelings anonymously, in a sort of complicated manner so that people who read it will have a twisted state of mind; and able to evaluate every actions behind my reasoning. Didn't mean to confuse or showing off my skills or anything, but it's the actual virtual whiteboard where I could pour out my entire soul into expressing myself as I'm kind of mute in front of public, in other words, introvert. So, I hope that my art won't be misinterpreted like myself being looked by the TESL students as showing off in my English class.
I never dare to show off, even if it means to disgrace an immoral person. I post everything in English, my FB, my emails, and, here. But, this semester alone, I understand why I'm not chosen into a linguistic course: TESL. If I enter those courses, I will BE LIKE THEM. As I see it, they always trying to show off their linguistic skills. But, given should an IT book full of codings is thrown at them, could they decipher it even if it is covered entirely in English? I'm not showing off like those midgets, enough that I keep it to myself and to my dear pals. Actually, there's a precise reason of why I'm posting everything not in my mother tongue language. But, maybe I'll reveal it in the future to come. And it's indeed a personal one. Another thing that I would like to note about linguistic students (I'm really sorry if this may seem insulting), is that they're sort of...slacking off. Ok, that's it. As my entire house occupants is like that, I've experienced it myself on their work ethics. Full of assignment load, busy, those excuses is a piece of lie. But, they could score >3.5 in exams. Maybe it's their course only, or the contrary. I don't want to talk bad, as I'm heavily sinned my entire life. It usually comes back to haunt me in an unexpected period. I'm sorry for insulting them. But I feel it's the honest truth. Go figure.
Actually, I'm just telling that I've changed my diary layout, but it seems that I'm slanting a bit towards venting my blind fury today. So, that's it. During this holidays, I need to do a lot of internal reminiscence to refirm my true path of life so that I wouldn't be treated like a beggar next time like I'm now. Probably I'm worse. Once again, thank you for those who remained loyal and maintains on peeking my diary once in a while. Appreciate it.--->*-*
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