Been gifted with sensitivities for others may seem
beneficial at some point, & even self-prickly at others. As I’m raised in a family mixture of multiple
proportions aside from my childhood schooling with a majority of crowds which
are an opposite race of my own, I may had been slanted to others’ culture too
much. However, it opened my eyes of the
various perspectives that I had for others regarding the very timid word people
used to express themselves: L-O-V-E.
What is truly defined by this wording?
Via Merriam-Webster dictionary, “Love” is meant by strong affection for
another arising out of kinship or personal ties. It is a human emotion slanted towards
affection, based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests. Put together in simple terms, it could even
be meant by warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion. Since my age of exceeding adolescence (probably)
of leaving the number 20, I’ve been placed in various situations that made me
constantly review the terminology of love.
Seriously even when my interest is more towards code programming in
university, I vow to discover what this wording meant some day.
Love for your family, it’s no doubt a compassion far
exceeding your other care for people in your vicinity. They’re the individuals that had been seeing
your every single behaviour, be it eccentric of generic. They’ve living with you through pain &
sorrow, sewing up your feelings whenever you’re down or they might be the
reasoning behind it. However, you still
discover a sense of peace & tranquillity during their presence. Love for your family is a strong binding seal
that could propel you towards moulding your own future. Since I’ve been living within a mixed culture
family, I could claim that my family is not like those people would perceive us,
the “higher-educated” people
were. Gladly to say, there’re
individuals who’ve been my sole motivation of pursuing my studies further than
my current state was. Citing them, one
of them is without a doubt, my mom. She’s
an example of mine that’s comparable to Margaret Thatcher & Mother
Theresa. She’s a fan of this prominent
figure herself.
My mom’s love for us, is undivided. Probably by the time that I’m young, I often
misunderstood her intention of giving my upper siblings a better attention from
the sense of finance. We, the other 2
smaller lot often get lost behind. I
dare to say, even when I’m 20++ I still don’t have a driver’s license. That’s because we’ve given up a lot of our
luxury for supporting the both of them with their PhD & degrees
respectively. A lot of stuff that I saw
people could own, is beyond my grasp. As
I’m near my degree completion, slowly I manage to foresee mom’s effort. Few months ago when my hand phone is
problematic, she kept on contemplating on me to be patient. As soon as I got back, she bought me a new
Sony smart phone immediately. 4 months
ago when my PC broke, leaving me 2 months without computer to face internship,
she immediately bought me a new Ultrabook right away. As she believed I’m among my siblings who
could succeed, she worked her dual job as a teacher in primary school &
tuition centre to support us. And I
never dare to ask a penny even during my tight days. This condition made me believe my power of
pursuing Master after this, so I could save her life from the man who’s causing
her misery. Who knows, I will get my
Doctorate if it’s possible. You got to
believe in maternal love, a mother would never fail to support her children
even if it would cost her freedom & happiness. I was deeply scarred every time I saw Mom’s
sacrifice. That motivates me to work
harder.
Loving another individual might be comparable to a blank
canvas. You’re the artist that sketches
the detail, bringing out the ideas dormant within your mind to an abstract of
visualization for others. For these
years in a foreign land, pursuing my ambitions, there are various instances
that I perceive is love. When you love
someone, it changed your inside, even if it’s just a tiny portion. The very
first puppy love that I expect would work out, turns out to be a
misunderstanding of my own feelings. She
misunderstood it as well, & even led the crowd to being despicable as well.
I cared for a friend that I thought share the same feeling as I am. We had so many similarities to begin with,
but in the end it felt like I’m the one who would sacrifice anything just to
live a day to accompany her to go through her hard times.
The one I thought is a simple caring toward
others, turned out to be one of my most genuine emotion expression on someone. Silently I care for her, whilst living to see
her happy from my presence. She is my
ideal match maid of Heaven. She often
carved a smile on my face, even during out hard times. I
understood, our love might not meant to be. Maybe someday, the same type of
person would come into my life & respond to my affection. One of my lecture content, “Love is given to us by God in order for us to return it to the
needy. We can’t expect the same
proportion of treatment or love been given back to us as a consideration for
whatever we did for them.” Yeah, it’s
true. Been a loner with vicious scars
people unaware about, I’m almost impatient of waiting for my ideal partner to
help me bliss up my day. However, hope
there’ll be changing of hearts & people would give me “love” in return. Ironic isn’t
it, for me to return back what I mention previously. However, I timidly wait for that day to come.
Caring and compassion are among the strongest tool of
emotion. Loving someone is just like
pursuing your destination on a hectic highway.
Your might begin your journey from a small pathway, diverging into a
midway with no cars to hamper your intention.
Proceeding further into the highway, there’ll be numerous branches with
approaches that determine the time intake for your entire journey. This is the determining junction; a road
branches out for you to choose. Be it
speedy way that you’ve selected, or the approach of slow-&-steady to reach
the destination safely, it’s you who shape your own destiny. It’s similar with love. You can be guided b the budding sensations
that it possess, be it to your own preference or according to your opposite
entity. However, loving is something that
should be handled with care & given utmost attention in detail. Doors can’t be barged in, flowers can’t be
fed with excessive fertilizers, & wrong keys can’t turn over incompatible
doorknobs. Subtle your loving heart with
balanced proportions, so as it’ll not harm you internally. Like my case, I studied the farther I could
possibly reach for my loving Mom, & I care for those that I love even if my
feelings weren’t returned in equality.
Love, it all depends on sincerity, not obscurity.
“Love does not emit only one colour. It is a variety of different colours. Don’t be overwhelmed. You can complete love without the physical part.”
One Warm Word (Korean Drama), Yoo Jae Hak: episode 11
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