now & then whenever i think of you, i nearly cried.
remember the time when we first met, we were naive & humble.
when i set my glare on you, i wonder how do you conceal yourself before.
as i never seen you anywhere, i thought you were like cottontail’s spore.
sprinkled in the wind’s gust, appearing in the dust.
talking in the crowd, walking neatly together.
as we get to know each other, we got closer.
chatting about each other, ignoring all our awkwardness.
i see you as pretty, walking proudly amidst humbly.
never looking down other, i held you highly.
by how you conversation with people of your own credibility, their eyes sparkle when yours came into contact.
crossing our border of freedom, you sneer cheerfully.
consoling me when i’m down, bored or just sad.
we ran together, scurried across the alley full of strays.
feeding cats, your most beloved critter that you would die to care at.
how you told me about your life’s perspective, something that i myself never seen before.
it somehow altered my overlook on living, even with a tiny fracture.
conceding to your wordings of wisdom, how you told me about yourself.
how you maintain your inner sanity, how you configure your confusion with full integrity.
i hear your stories, and felt that my degree of perspective is by far inferior than yours.
and so i listened with awe, when i stare at you.
deep inside i chit, i’ve met someone with my own style of living.
i always conceding to your inner being, your charisma that weakens.
i saw your inner beauty, how you pat those cats.
even though it’s all dirty & unfurbish, you didn’t even budge your palm, if not retracts.
i nearly dissed with embarrassment, as onlookers stare.
but i remain static over there, as i’m amazed by your awesome care.
you never fails to pluck in your wisdom, in everything that you did.
as you console me, telling me to not feed on people’s greed.
advised me to follow my own desire, avoid hurting what i need to acquire.
and so i did what you told me, and until now i never solely regrets.
our friendship went across the wire, where we jump around together.
laughing frantically with desire, not forgetting what we need to acquire.
you showed your intelligence in your stance, how you interpret your nature.
by act or force, you decide it with your judgment of maturity.
i like how you amend me, how you feel guilty if you didn’t contribute.
it’s what courtesy means, that we didn’t trampled on people.
your smile of innocence, how you curve your lips to strangers.
to those old, young, or even those that you care about.
that’s what makes the beauty out of you, my dear best friend forever.
now whenever i see our attended stalls, alleys, library shelves & shelters i’ll always remember what we had.
how you changed my perspective of life, treated me without bias.
been my closest girl companion, ignoring other people’s stare.
accompanying me through my darkest hours, attending with me through the morning’s wee hours that you scare.
i’ve never shed tears that much for anyone, but for you i did cry without care.
by how reminiscing about a person that you care about, it’s what made me had heartache.
your sudden departure, where i’m waiting with passion on your return.
when you’re gone, i felt like i’m a carpenter who lost their hammer.
should one day when we meet again, i’ll give you my utmost care.
now & then i cried with care, praying that you’re doing good over there.
i’ll always remember you, my dear good friend,
where i woke up in a chaotic state, and realized that you are there when i needed,
you used to be accompanying me through thick and thins, where a single call or sms would bridge us closer,
now even calls are not suffice, as we are farther away from each other,
however time closed its toll, signifying the future that's bleak but somehow full of hope.
just as dawn creeps after dusk unfolds, actual stories of us lingers untold.
uncredited actions unravel, where i've been a sole survivor.
perhaps it's my own action were to blame, where i trusted people too mundane,
concealed intentions, hidden integrity, betrayed trust; those traits that you possibly won't behold,
deep inside should you ever read this, remember that we would do as what we both told.
when i set my glare on you, i wonder how do you conceal yourself before.
as i never seen you anywhere, i thought you were like cottontail’s spore.
sprinkled in the wind’s gust, appearing in the dust.
talking in the crowd, walking neatly together.
as we get to know each other, we got closer.
chatting about each other, ignoring all our awkwardness.
i see you as pretty, walking proudly amidst humbly.
never looking down other, i held you highly.
by how you conversation with people of your own credibility, their eyes sparkle when yours came into contact.
crossing our border of freedom, you sneer cheerfully.
consoling me when i’m down, bored or just sad.
we ran together, scurried across the alley full of strays.
feeding cats, your most beloved critter that you would die to care at.
how you told me about your life’s perspective, something that i myself never seen before.
it somehow altered my overlook on living, even with a tiny fracture.
conceding to your wordings of wisdom, how you told me about yourself.
how you maintain your inner sanity, how you configure your confusion with full integrity.
i hear your stories, and felt that my degree of perspective is by far inferior than yours.
and so i listened with awe, when i stare at you.
deep inside i chit, i’ve met someone with my own style of living.
i always conceding to your inner being, your charisma that weakens.
i saw your inner beauty, how you pat those cats.
even though it’s all dirty & unfurbish, you didn’t even budge your palm, if not retracts.
i nearly dissed with embarrassment, as onlookers stare.
but i remain static over there, as i’m amazed by your awesome care.
you never fails to pluck in your wisdom, in everything that you did.
as you console me, telling me to not feed on people’s greed.
advised me to follow my own desire, avoid hurting what i need to acquire.
and so i did what you told me, and until now i never solely regrets.
our friendship went across the wire, where we jump around together.
laughing frantically with desire, not forgetting what we need to acquire.
you showed your intelligence in your stance, how you interpret your nature.
by act or force, you decide it with your judgment of maturity.
i like how you amend me, how you feel guilty if you didn’t contribute.
it’s what courtesy means, that we didn’t trampled on people.
your smile of innocence, how you curve your lips to strangers.
to those old, young, or even those that you care about.
that’s what makes the beauty out of you, my dear best friend forever.
now whenever i see our attended stalls, alleys, library shelves & shelters i’ll always remember what we had.
how you changed my perspective of life, treated me without bias.
been my closest girl companion, ignoring other people’s stare.
accompanying me through my darkest hours, attending with me through the morning’s wee hours that you scare.
i’ve never shed tears that much for anyone, but for you i did cry without care.
by how reminiscing about a person that you care about, it’s what made me had heartache.
your sudden departure, where i’m waiting with passion on your return.
when you’re gone, i felt like i’m a carpenter who lost their hammer.
should one day when we meet again, i’ll give you my utmost care.
now & then i cried with care, praying that you’re doing good over there.
i’ll always remember you, my dear good friend,
where i woke up in a chaotic state, and realized that you are there when i needed,
you used to be accompanying me through thick and thins, where a single call or sms would bridge us closer,
now even calls are not suffice, as we are farther away from each other,
however time closed its toll, signifying the future that's bleak but somehow full of hope.
just as dawn creeps after dusk unfolds, actual stories of us lingers untold.
uncredited actions unravel, where i've been a sole survivor.
perhaps it's my own action were to blame, where i trusted people too mundane,
concealed intentions, hidden integrity, betrayed trust; those traits that you possibly won't behold,
deep inside should you ever read this, remember that we would do as what we both told.
~may fate reunite us like the seaside bayou, blowing softly signifying our unification of happiness~
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| this is the very last text that i had with her... |
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| This seat, it was never filled, it's always vacant. Up until today, the 14th week. Feels like it's been reserved for her since the 2nd week... |
p/s: dedicate it to the kelantan lass…
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