Our holiday had passed 5 days, with me dulled in assignment mood even until
today. After I wrote the previous poem, my conscious sort of cleared some
bit. Not all but, in a sort of way that I'm not aching by the name of my
"colour" anymore. Talking about her, it seems that she had a
happy & excited mood related to me. Probably because after our
faculty's Annual General Meeting (AGM) last Monday when I texted her to be
careful on her way back, she feel deeply touched. After all, I've
constantly been ignoring her everywhere, be it via phone nor social
media. Even her presence kind of made my heart shatter every day.
Maybe she thought I have forgive her mistakes, but as humans even I had
critical sins too. However after our interchanged grins within the
lecture hall where the meeting is adjourned, it kind of gave her the impression
that my wounds are healed. Does it? Since then, she messaged me
every night via FB, always started with the smiley face ^-^ to show me that
she's excited. Well, we can't perceive beyond the computer's monitor can we?
I'm kind of stuck with the revelation that every time I see her, my feeling
towards her fluctuates a bit. That very night, I re-evaluated my thoughts
of her, as she's the source of my unseen happiness & somehow invisible
misery. Enough blabbering, Farid. :-)
As promised long time ago, there's a few stuff that I would wanted to publish
in my "diary", but due to the fact that I'm still blurred this
holiday with my assignments that I'm trying to rush on before semester reopens
& re-closes (it's weird this semester, as we had mid breaks now, then
resume session for a week, then holiday for another), I'm still trying to grip
my feet on the ground. See, I'm metaphoring without realizing it.
So, as to conceal the previous heart-wrenching entries, I'll post some of my
Photoshop arts online......again. So, thanks for the people who
constantly visited my humble "diary", just to view some of my
miseries that I couldn't mention face-to-face to others, and my eye-budging
confessions about my love fruit.
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| 1 f my faculty event, the moment when I'm starting to have feelings for... |
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| This is my messed-up Photoshop arts... |
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| Life in 2nd semester |
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| Just did it last night, illustration of my pals in uni. :-) |
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| Well, she's in there~ |
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| Our trip to a nearby river...this pic is not that neat, haha... |
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| Did this 1 in commemorate our recent Hari Raya Haji (loners who're stranded here, me & my pals) |
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| Photo credit to Canon website. Thought it's great, that I modify it's indigo & purple curve... |
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| Notice anything familiar? Yup, the previous wallpaper...:-) |
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| I made this to release my dissatisfaction of her cold attitude when she gave me the keychain... |
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| What I made for my foster sister...haven't seen her in the past 6 weeks, so hectic... |
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| I made this for the person who bullied me alive, now I'm still in the session of silence with him... |
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