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| My pretty friend. Remember the incident that day, when she sat down in my booth & suddenly cried while expressing to me on a personal family matter. It's touching. |
Tonight, it's full of nostalgia. The course, really changed me a lot inside that nobody knows about it. I remember the time when we had the robotic competition. This event involves my by-then close partner Ira. The story went all the way back, when she's facing all the difficulties. I think from the 60 teams that're taking part, I'm the only team that competes single-handly, solo. During the times, I struggled hard to juggle my social responsibilites, life conflicts with my then love crush, & the various workload that I had in university. I mean, I cried almost every once in a while.
The only time that I thought I fought alone in this project is when Ira bid me farewell in the middle of it all. I remember the time, when it's Monday afternoon that I received her text whereas she disappeared by almost a month. She decided to postpone her studies. By the tone of her message that I read, I just sat still. Then, my body lied down on my single-man bed with my room mate's looking. I hugged my Angry Bird plush, covered my face, then bursted into tears with those sobbing noises included. My room mate, just looked at me dumbly & pitifully without knowing what's going on. That evening, I braved myself to survive a university committee meeting that I had to present. My soul was emotionless for those 3 weeks.
After that time, I struggled to settle the project. Went to robotic lab every morning, afternoon whenever I had time. In myself, I urged my inner spirit to endure it all, to do whatever it has to win the 1st prize. Even played truant for my History lecture for the very 1st time ever in 3 years I'm pursuing tertiary education. It's also to prove to my former crush that how she dejected me will be flushed down the drain should I manage to stood on the podium, claiming victory where she volunteered to be in my team to mend our relationship in the 1st place before she joined another popularizer man that keeps on showing off.
A lot that I had to go through during that time. I cried almost every day at 2.40 a.m. before went to bed. Call me crazy. During the competition, Ive survived 3 days straight of sleeping for only 4 hours. Despite all the efforts, God gave me a disappointing day to engulf those 2 days of robotic event. I was alone at the display booth, competing ring, whilst my former flame was only 5 feet away & constantly staring. It ended with me losing, however had garnered a few cheers & salutations for those who knew my misery. Now, I had completely lose touch with her for 9 months. Only God knows what revolved during these period. This occurrence taught me a lot about human perception, about how even our closest friend would be a prick to our skin, & discovering people that we must fight all our life to care about.
Thank God for giving me a life lesson, etched well in just 2 months of me living alone without lovers, or people who would spend time to know me deep inside. From there onwards, I played a deaf ear to all people who tried to harm me emotionally, & spent time with those that I love and actually care about the most.
The only time that I thought I fought alone in this project is when Ira bid me farewell in the middle of it all. I remember the time, when it's Monday afternoon that I received her text whereas she disappeared by almost a month. She decided to postpone her studies. By the tone of her message that I read, I just sat still. Then, my body lied down on my single-man bed with my room mate's looking. I hugged my Angry Bird plush, covered my face, then bursted into tears with those sobbing noises included. My room mate, just looked at me dumbly & pitifully without knowing what's going on. That evening, I braved myself to survive a university committee meeting that I had to present. My soul was emotionless for those 3 weeks.
After that time, I struggled to settle the project. Went to robotic lab every morning, afternoon whenever I had time. In myself, I urged my inner spirit to endure it all, to do whatever it has to win the 1st prize. Even played truant for my History lecture for the very 1st time ever in 3 years I'm pursuing tertiary education. It's also to prove to my former crush that how she dejected me will be flushed down the drain should I manage to stood on the podium, claiming victory where she volunteered to be in my team to mend our relationship in the 1st place before she joined another popularizer man that keeps on showing off.
A lot that I had to go through during that time. I cried almost every day at 2.40 a.m. before went to bed. Call me crazy. During the competition, Ive survived 3 days straight of sleeping for only 4 hours. Despite all the efforts, God gave me a disappointing day to engulf those 2 days of robotic event. I was alone at the display booth, competing ring, whilst my former flame was only 5 feet away & constantly staring. It ended with me losing, however had garnered a few cheers & salutations for those who knew my misery. Now, I had completely lose touch with her for 9 months. Only God knows what revolved during these period. This occurrence taught me a lot about human perception, about how even our closest friend would be a prick to our skin, & discovering people that we must fight all our life to care about.
Thank God for giving me a life lesson, etched well in just 2 months of me living alone without lovers, or people who would spend time to know me deep inside. From there onwards, I played a deaf ear to all people who tried to harm me emotionally, & spent time with those that I love and actually care about the most.
Time, could you be the cure to everything, anything?
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