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This is calendar scans from Naruto Shippuden, credits to saiyanisland.com.  Combined the individual parts with Photoshop to form 1 page, it's more space-saving.  And, for my personal preference.

An Essay...Not Related To Myself, But My Composing

      This is an essay that my mom asked me to do for her during the semester 3 break, for the "Man" - headmistress' evaluation regarding the KSSR teachings.  I pity her for being so busy and refused to be helped while I'm around, so I volunteered to perform it for her.  Aided her in correcting hundreds of exercise books, charts, letter typing, etc.  Really, even when I'm treated like that, I'm still unmoved by the commotion.  How ironic... 

Most Significant Change in KSSR Implementation

                Kurikulum Standard Sekolah Rendah , or KSSR in abbreviation, is another effort done by the Education Ministry under the control of the Federal Government in order to further improve the current state of the education sector towards a point where it is more adhering and competitive with the international standards.  Like PPSMI that had been improvised previously, KSSR is an evolution of KBSR that had been done prior 1980’s as a standard measurement to properly elevate the education aspects for the primary students.  To be exact, KSSR is the improved version of its previous counterpart KBSR (Kurikulum Bersepadu Sekolah Rendah) and had been introduced 2 years ago along with several other devised improvement for the primary schools.

                Government had been carrying out various plans and revolution in an effort to raise the standards of Malaysian academics to be equal on par with the other developing countries.  It could be said that Malaysia is achieving that baseline that had been stated during the independence period, which is to ensure that its citizens could receive academics with an equal exposure and quality.  One of the objectives that could be enforced in the implementation if KSSR is by far the primary and most important one, which is to improve the teaching of English in the education sectors.  So far, like PPSMI, the government had improvised the importance of English as a universal language, and therefore must be enforced in our education aspects.  Various methods had been included to make sure that the program could achieve its pinnacle of success, such as by organizing extra classes for those students in need, using English as the main medium of deliverance for subjects deemed critical (Science and Mathematics), giving various incentives for educators that are successful in applying English as a teaching medium and student improvement, and etc.  By using English as a medium of teaching students from a tender age (7-12 years old), they could be exposed with the proper usage of this language not just from the basic usage such as nouns and proper sentence construction, they could actually apply this norm into their daily lives so as to slowly have a liking towards the language itself, besides encouraging the usage of another language beside their own mother tongue prior from their development stage until they enter adolescence period.

                Along with the importance of practicing English in their daily lives, the students could step-by-step improve their proficiency of using English as a communicative language.  In this context, students are moved by the intention of using English to enhance their communication experience with the society members.  In a society where there could be more usage of diversified language such as Malaysia,, from the exposure of learning English students could actually improve their communication skills.  Because there might be possibilities that other races couldn’t speak languages that they acknowledge, English is the bridging language for all communities as it could connect everyone well with the usage of one single language alone.  Everyone won’t be mixed with feelings and could comprehend between themselves well.  This could in turn bring an improvement in racial relationships.  There won’t be any misconceptions that could be easily be caused should one individual insists on enforcing the usage of his own mother tongue to communicate with everyone.  From the student’s point of view, the learning of a standardized language such as English which is used widely and primarily around the globe could actually improve their intellectual skills.  As studies had proven, individuals who know more communicative language show a higher tendency of peaked intellectual quotient.  So, it could be said that English is the language that may propel their further development in the societies.

As resource materials widely implements the usage of English as a medium of explanation whether graphical or text, learning of English could improve the abilities to inquire for resources in  teaching English.  It is not a mistake for strengthening one’s own understanding into knowledge by acquiring the materials from a language that they could comprehend and engulf, but should they could receive it from the other language, it will be a massive improvement towards themselves.  For example, in the Malaysian’s education sectors itself, in order to pursue higher studies such as Masters and Philosophical Doctorate (PHD), research materials used are not limited from the scope of within the countries itself but in a range of worldwide.  Therefore, with a limited ability to understand the very basics of English itself, it would be a lot of hassle for students to obtain their desired materials.  The same case goes to students, as they will be encountering more usage of English in their future themselves.  It is vital for them to learn the core of English itself so that their efforts to search for study materials such as textbook and reference materials could be less of an effort.  It would be better if the students could learn more from not just the deliverance of knowledge within the class hours, so that their information acceptance could be broadly widen, besides improving their competitive skills in the later future.

Learning is an essential process to sustain our ongoing development.  Via learning English, it could be claimed that the future development of individuals could be well-balanced besides being pinpointed towards a brighter pathway ahead.  As widely acknowledged by whole, the world, no matter where it is in the globe is using English alongside with their own mother tongue language in an effort to further multiply their productive skills.  As a few giant dominating countries such as the America, Britain and Australia are using this language as their primary one, it is a must for us to be able to obtain some motivation to learn the language itself in order to improve our continued development.  Without a firm understanding and belief in the actual knowledge that propels these countries towards the pinnacle that they’ve achieved long time ago until today, it may be that our effort to compete with them with the so-called “our own identity”, which is our own mother tongue language may proven futile.  Therefore, it is important that youths nowadays are exposed with the ideality of taking in the learning of English seriously so that they could improve themselves from a whole.  From a more careful effort and rapport of learning English, they could actually implement it in their lives so that what they learn previously could be applied together with what they perceived as right during their studies.  This could aid in their ongoing development process towards becoming a less defected individual.

In a nutshell, the learning of English which is criticized widely in the implementation of KSSR is an effort by the government that could be praised besides must be sustained for a static period of time to ensure that what it actually targets to achieve could somehow become a reality.  In comparison with the PPSMI conducted by the government in the early 2003 that had been recently deemed unsuccessful by a lot of parents nationwide, the effort of KSSR in implementing the importance of  English usage in the school curriculum should be given a critical attention and continuous aid towards ensuring that its planning could become a successful one not for the students themselves, but towards the society members and the individual that maintains the effort themselves, which is the educators themselves.

<Mentioned it already, I've done everything for them.  Only after reading it and praised by her colleagues, then she finally recognizes my ability.  Even asked if I copied it somewhere.  Go figure with that. After all this while, she and that "beast" thought I'm a dumb toddler.  Well, managed to demonstrate it to them anyway.  Under their supervision (WITH the guy's constant monitoring, fazed by my typing speed), I manage to complete it in 30 minutes.  It's the only thing that makes me proud of myself.  Ignore the details.  Just feel like abandoning the sad motives within me for an entry's worth.>

Continue "sad"-ding next time.

My Life Longing Spirit is Significantly Draining......

"I didn't think I had the focus to study anymore."      

      That's the first word that I mentioned to my mom today during a phone call session.  I really had it.  Not because I don't have favours towards study, but there's jamming entries of constraining complications that needs to be resolved before i could really pour all out and compete efficiently with others.  My spirit towards study seems to be diminished after I departed from home, prior finishing the semester 3's break.  After my failure in 1 of the major subjects that I've constantly being placing my efforts in, everything doesn't seem to be going my way.  Added with the fact that my mom's going to court this 1st March, I don't think I really had the gas to propel forward.   

      Actually, finance is my main worries when I reached here.  I had longing for a handphone replacement ever since early semester 3, and my beloved 4 1/2 year old Nokia 3250 had finally claimed its own life.  Many choices had been on my array of candidates, but to the reality, it's just another effort by my subconscious to repel me from my family's poverty.  After I checked for the study loan that had been rumored to be already in circulation since last Friday this afternoon, my heart sank to the lowest level.  RM2110.11 is the amount that appeared on the ATM machine.  It couldn't possibly be enough for me, as everything that I performs need to be based on my own expenses, not from external sources.  So, how the hell am I going to pay for house rent, internet bills, expenses, books, printing, and those sort of things? It wasn't even close to the RM3200 that I estimated to be spent this semester alone.  Among the few of items that I had heavily desired to accomplish using the study loan includes:

1.  Samsung Galaxy Y (RM499.00)

2. New glasses (<=RM150.00)

3. House Rent (RM113.00 x 4 + RM50.00)

4. Books + Printing (<=RM200.00)

5. Expenses (RM1300.00)

6.  Flight Ticket (<=RM500.00)

      So, do the math.  I almost cried with the revolution, that I fell asleep while counting my finance this afternoon, something that never occurred before.  It gives me sleepless nights.   So, how am I going to cope with this condition? I'm still trying to come to my senses.  Sincerely, I had lost the will to study.  People said that should we mention something verbally, it may eventually become true.  Or by all means, I've lost my will to live.  Never been in my life that I had to endure something so harsh, where not many people surrounding me will ever had their tongue to sip on that very taste of misery.  I mean, no matter how poor people is, they will still be able to afford their children to study right? That's the initial purpose of every existing parents in this realm, to provide the best for their offspring.  But, I feel like everything hasn't gone along my conceptions yet.  I'm having a misery of a life, don't even mention my mother and brother who's residing at home.  During my pre departure from Sibu last Friday, my aunt is the one who's willing to send me to the airport.  Misery, as I've never been sent by my own parents to the airport before, not even during my admission to the tertiary institution.  Along the journey, I'd voiced out my dissatisfaction towards that very creature that makes up my last name.  My  aunt is the authority of my mother's side, as she's the eldest.  I never chat so much like that ever to neither my relatives.  I told her everything as it's my only opportunity to confess something like that.  She agrees to my every word, mentioning about the useless state that the creature had caused our family to be in the state that we're in.  She claimed that even her husband, who's retired but rich, would acquire a side job to earn extra mileage in living.  So how come that creature that's typically mentally and physically able, lives to ruin our life?

      To everyone's attention, there's a few time that I attempted suicide.  That's something that should not be mentioned publicly, but that's what really happened.  So, I'm finding myself to experiencing difficulties to carve a smile on my face.  Really, lost my will to live.  Can't go on anymore.  I've tried so hard in everything, but nothing seems to come to avail.  Why the hell is this occurring to myself? Please don't have the perception that I'm badmouthing an innocent soul of that creature, because everyone around my family, even my neighbour would want to tear "it" apart.  This public diary doesn't seem to achieve its target anymore, which is to express my dissatisfied feelings.  Perhaps I'll cease to update it anymore, as my soul is helpless to even share my misery with others.  I couldn't smile anymore, thinking of my bleak future.  Is it really worth it to come to this foreign soil to obtain knowledge?  Or should I stop my study and return home to suffer with my family?  My sister, even she's too selfish to admit our poverty.  Should I've been given an opportunity as hers and pursue my highest recognition, but in turn travel, spend, and forgets the dear people that's suffering to the brink of cease to exist, would I ever did it? Did she ever give it a thought? My "brother", he's been living in KL, continuing and postponing his studies just so that he could remain a transsexual where he is recognized.  These people only live for themselves, but never deep inside to even consider our dying souls.  I'm feeling like I'm carrying the thoughts of 5 people.

      So, how am I planning to divide the 2100 bucks, that's clearly not sufficient enough to sustain my life here? I'll even be stuck here this semester end.  How am I supposed to carve a smile in my face towards the people surrounding me, where I had typically lost the will to live? How am I supposed to focus on my studies, with all this revolution going on without my presence? Lost my composure to focus on my life.  After this, I may even walk into a pole without realizing the pain to my head.  That's the level of my feint sense towards my environment now.  I'm sick of expressing my misery towards a white plane...

Leaves Bud Anew

( It's been a while since I compose a sincere poem, so here it is.)

The chronology replays its part,

Clocks revert back to 12,

Year ended should 365 day-24 hour is breached,

Life reaches its conclusion, 

This are the comparisons of a new beginning.

Reaching the pathway where the two ends meet,

The consideration of a sane mind,

Whether to head back to the previous road taken,

Or just restructure right at this point, and proceeds forward,

Whichever the choice that determines the outcome that would be ridden.

Beneath every sheet of plannings, be it concrete or abstract,

Is the layout that conceals the lowest trench of a creation's essence,

Should be this drain of parallel path is discovered,

It could be said that one's planning is a sure success,

Which ends the roads of divergence in mind, and finally the sound state underneath.

One could choose either route that benefits most,

While considering every means of restructuring or start-point beginning,

As beginning from the past preference may be sorrowful,

But a solid guidelines from the past may be a guidance to the best,

So we could smile and claim, "I won't regret.".

Life is occupied with rules and tribulations,

As without each it would be imperfect and dull,

But we should consider to go along the path or choice that soothes the most,

Although it may be painstaking and misunderstood by underlings,

It's our beginning, and where the leaves bud anew.

<Inspired from a recent conversation with my course mate, and dedicated to the upcoming semester 4.  May everything goes well whether in my life, career and societies.  And may I'm not misunderstood as an emotional person.:-)>

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Doo...doo...dooo...that right, green shirt one is my target...

From here onwards, it's pretty much LCCT itself.

1 donut for 8 bucks? I'll chew my shoes for that luxury side food!!!

Break the law!!! Break the law!!! I played 1 anyway, hihi...

This is my beloved bro, and he lives fireworks during CNY. Really.

Smelling the gas from the firecrackers makes me, well, woo-woo...

Midnight, we let the door open, with the hope that more "chai" will come in this year.

Right before midnight.  My bro's preparing for war that time.

HP got no flash, so replace it with flashlight!!! LOL.

A walk with my bro in town, and we saw this. Wow...