Is there a world where you could not misunderstood and wouldn't be misunderstood by others? If it exists, what a wonderful paradise this eternity would seems to be. - Song Yi-Kyung( Lee Yo Won, 49 Days, episode 8 )My whole 4 months of holidays had came across a whole lot of this matter. In fact, I just hope that I won't be misunderstood by the people surrounding me and not misunderstood other people's intentions towards me. I seems like a pitiful fella, compared to others who's so cheerful and purified by "spider webs" on their heads. Just want to talk a little about love, the most potent emotion that makes the whole world go about its orbit. This entire holidays had been spent to improve my housing condition besides my own family's relations. Fixing lights, part-time job as a tutor, fixing doors, cleaning, being a bodyguard, housemaid, buying vegetables, sacrificing my own finance, just name a few. I couldn't unleash my family's condition- I'm their caretaker, undertaker, soul keeper, Scheduler, law enforcer, anything you think a poor conditioned child who's being protected by some sort of spiritual guardian-that's me. Although it's hard to let go, I had to do it.
I love you, Mom and bro. I'm there when you're sobbing and crying in front of me expressing your despair and concerns, sharing every single vital moments that will be treasured by the very core of my soul. It's about time I leave behind this lifestyle, dragging my emotions as I smile in front of my friends, crying sadly in the night.
Love is something that you couldn't abandon, when you have the feeling of love towards something, that'll make you care about that single entity and willing to sacrifice every single piece of your soul just to ensure that the entity will maintain perfection-be it physical or inner core. When you love something, you will treasure that thing until the very ends. When you love someone, you will go as far as to lose yourself just to ensure the person's well being is taken care of.
When you love, you're willing to gave 100% of yourself just to protect that entity's 50%. So, do the math if the thing needs to be taken care to the fullest. Love is something that propels us forward. If we didn't love our studies, we will feel miserable just to look at the educator themselves. No love for our property means we would eventually abandon it's care someday soon. Those love by coupling-couple, is that true love? Or questionable desire to own that single property-the person? Do the judge. If you love something even a little as an interest, you wouldn't abandon it regardless in any way that could possibly exist. If you love, care it to the fullest, and don't misunderstood the things that you love the most. Even if you had your feelings affected by any alterations done to the "thing", do not lose your stand and do your best to maintain your property, even if it may cost you dearly. Tell you, if a robber sneaks in and ready to harm my family, I would greatly hold the dagger honorly, or gun, or machete, or whatever weapons that had a shot of 1-hit kill into my own stomach or chest. I would REALLY DO IT. Not just a saying, but this whole blog proves it. So,I just hope that my "love" at home would live well. I would try to love what I do, and may God shines his Greatness to everyone I loved dearly, including my friends. Semester 3, I hate you and I will LOVE you.
Please love your heart: it will tell you what should be loved and what's not worth it. - 11.57p.m., 12.09.2011, Monday.
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